FAIRYTALE [Not really!!!!!]

Its very easy to write something that we've seen in reality. Its much easier to
imagine. And when we have a blend of both, people like me come up with CRAP!!!!
One such episode is presented here.....hope everybody [if anybody at all reads
this] will enjoy it.

They had a small leisurely dinner at a small bistro, and stopped at a wine tavern. Afterward Arjun said, "Would you like to go for a cruise?"
"I'd love to", said Surily.
It was a perfect night, with a bright full moon and a summer breeze. The stars were shining down. They are shining down on us, Surily thought, because we're so happy. In the distance they saw a falling star.
"Quick!Make a wish," Arjun said.
Surily closed her eyes and was silent for a moment.
"Did you make your wish?"
"Yes."
"What did you wish for?"
Surily looked up at him and seriously, "I can't tell you or it won't come true."
Arjun leaned back and smiled at her. "This is perfect,isin't it?"
"It can always be this way, Arjun."
"What do you mean?"
"We could get married."
And there it was, out in open. He had been thinking of nothing else for the past few days.He was deeply in love with her, but he knew he could not make a commitment to her.
"Surily, that's impossible", said Arjun.
"Is it? Why?"
"I've explained it to you, darling."
"No," Surily said, "but........"
"There you are. It would never work. Tomorrow in Theatre, I'll show you........"
"I'm not going to theatre with you, Arjun."
He thought he misunderstood her. "What?"
Surily took a deep breath. "I'm not going to see you again."
It was like a blow to the stomach. "Why? I love you, Surily. I....."
"And I love you. But I'm not a groupie. I dont want to just another one of your crushes, chasing you around. You can have all those you want."
"Surily, I dont want anyone but you. But you dont see, sweetheart, our marraige could never work. We have separate livesthat are important to both of us. I would want us to be together all the time, and we couldn't be."
"That's it then, isin't it?" Surily said tightly. "I won't see you again, Arjun."
"Wait. Please! Lets's talk about this. Lets's go to your apartment, and........"
"No Arjun. I love you very much, but I won't go on like this. It's over."
"I dont want it to be over," Arjun insisted. "Change your mind."
"I can't. I'm sorry. Its all or nothing."
They were silent the rest of the way.When they reached her apartment, Arjun said, "Why dont I come up to your room? We can talk about this and......"
"No, my honey. There's nothing more to talk about."
He watched her get into the elevator and disappear.
When Surily reached her apartment, the telephone was ringing. She hurried to pick it up. "Arjun......"
"Hi. Its Sameer..............."
She managed to hide her disappointment.

She sat there, staring at the telephone in her hands, wishing it to ring. Two days it was silent. She was thinking...
"I made a mistake. I gave him an ultimatum, and I lost him. If I only waited....If only I had gone to theatre with him....if...if......."
She tried to visualise her life without Arjun. It was too painful to think about.
"But we can't go go on this way", Surily thought. "I want us to belong to each other." Tomorrow she had to return to work.

Surily lay down on the couch, fully dressed, the telephone by her side. She felt drained. She knew it would be impossible to get any sleep.
She slept. FOREVER.

P.S. Things are not always what they seem like!!!!

Reservations [much said...little done!!!!!!!!]

Everybody around is talking about reservations.Thats so frustrating...they have their owns views,no one wants to know the real picture...all we want is to voice our opinions
!We dont care about the system,we dont have the time to think about the people for whom all this is being done...
And why should we even bother?"I'm not directly getting affected by it,not sure if that proposal will really get into the formal list..so why care?"Attitude of many people whom I've come across!
Isin't this the intention of many of us?
59 years into independence,56yrs of reservation systems--what have we achieved?Number of people below the poverty line are increasing day by day,deprieved are not interested in protesting!What can one do under such circumstances?Have we ever tried to find out who came in through the quota system n excelled?
Before we question the merits n demerits of reservation system I think that there are some simple beliefs which need to be addressed.
:Once the 27% is added to the existing 22.5%-it would leave few seats for the rest.
:Proof of undeserved reservation-dropout rate is considerably high among quota candidates.
:Most of these people have no acadermic bent of mind n so do not land in jobs.
:OBC denominations belong to the affluent sections-quotas make no sense.
There is absolutely no reason why professionals should come from the affluent sections--instead govt should push a good primary n secondary education for all,followed by affirmative action such as reservation.
I do not dispute the need for reservation however the task of identifying the privileged among those people should be completed before any future policy is announced.The reservation policy needs to be rationalised in the light of fact that many identified as backward have ceased to be backward in the last 15 years.

Whatever be it-one thing is clear:given the oppurtunity,many more can work their way through the educational pyramid n benefit from higher education.But the question is,"what kind of society we want to shape?"The question that one should be asking is not why reservations, but how do we go about sculpturing a just and equitable society.
Tried to say something that I felt like many of my friends.Not sure how far I've succeeded in doing so...

STRUGGLING............[Dont know for how long]

Have I ever wondered that how many times I've faced a struggle with my innerself alias innerbeing or say soul-about the change in life!!There's a high probablity that that I might find my very own thoughts conflicting with with the thoughts that I'll possess later on.Well thats what life's all about-CHANGE.
What comes to my mind when I think of the word change?Family?Relationships?Career?N may be mundane things like food,movies,clothes,etc.Ofcourse,life has its own reseve of unexpected events,minor tussles,pain,misunderstandings and arguements.But then,unless we've experienced the pain, we cant truely enjoy the beauty of care,friendship,love n affection.
Relationships:We cannot live without them,can we?How many of us would like to live like a recluse?Imagining myself without anyone to depend upon,with no one depending on me,no love,no care and trust...that sends chills down my spine.Now I've acknowledged the fact that I was born alone,'ll live alone and die alone!Well...the word alone is not to be taken in literal terms...if we didn't have to face the struggles of life alone we'd never know our strenght n power......thats the beauty of lonliness-we face at times.
Questioning the unquestionable robs us of our peace of mind...conquering it gives the confidence to face everything with a smile and without restlessness.Now I wonder as to what is the cause of all my pains?Expectations????
Expectations:Expectations are the root cause of misery.Is it wrong to have expectations?Or is it wrong to give endless love n care?Well as far as I'm concerned neither of them can be termed as right or wrong,nevertheless a perfect balance has to be attained.Now comes-how many times have I done my job out of passion?-answer-everytime.How many times have I surrendered myself to others wishes?-answer-almost everytime.How my interets have changed in past few months?-answer-drastically.
The current constant struggle within me is---trying to answer those unansweres quetions,trying to convince myself to take that risk,trying to soothe those heartaches and trying to appreciate simple things in life!
Well I guess that its the time I learn the most valuable lesson of mylife.....without change life would be a smoothly paved,straight,flat road,safe and comfortable leading to nowhere also dull n utterly pointless.So I've decided NOT to accept everything n everyday as they come and also not to let anyone steal that smyle from my face.I've also learnt that no one worth my tears.And the biggest thing NO ONE is indispensible from me.
After a long self introspection n somehow convincing myself I guess I've just managed to verbalise my thoughts or say the struggle with the new change in my life.Now I wonder how many people on Earth think like me.......I'm sure there'll atleast be one person who'll agree with me!!!!!What say??